My new love.

I find it difficult to keep up with th tagboard yanno !
I haven't found th time to reply until now.
Thnks for th over-flowing tags (:

; Angela.
You're hotter on th dancefloor ;) Hee.

; Lois.
What have you been busy with lately !

; Alex.
You're mia ):

; Mabel.
I've been seeing you, love ! Hahaha.
Eyecandies. *Shh*

; Maybelle.
Hello pretty ! Thnks for popping by (:
Next time outings please come earlier if possible okay ?
Then I can get to see you too. Heehee.
Tk care of yourself yanno. Hugs.

; Jennifer.
Haha thnks !
& your shoe is comfortable too. Lol.
Made your day ? Hahahaha.
Thnk you, u tk care ya.

; Denyse.
AHAHA I got it right ! Thnks.

; KC.
Scythia very happening yanno ;)
Linked you alr. Haha.

; Jialin.
Which outing ? Haha, there's many outings !

; Cindy.
Maybe I think smarter than you. Lol.

; Spider.
Hahaha. So sorry ! But pretty fun right !

; Shirin.
Hello, you are ? (:

; Gary.
HELLO.

; Felicia.
I linked you alr at lj (:

; Brandon.
You too ! & I've replied now.
Hahaha.

; Jacq.
Yes ! So nice to know you still (:
Linked alr at lj !
See you soon.

; Dola.
MY FAVOURITE GL EYECANDYYY !
Miss you luhs ? Haha.

; Geraldine.
When are we meeting up for dinner/supper again ! (:

; Bao.
Hey ! Hahaha so surprising you popped here.
See you soon again :DD

; Beefy.
Quite alright ! It's opened alr haha.

; Sean.
Updated alot at lj ! Go see okay ?
Hahaha.

; Minmin.
Pretty ladaye ! How have you been ?

; Tangguo.
I'm sorry, please don't be so sad alrights ?
I've updated btw.

; Shirleen.
My girl ! You still read huh ? Lols.
Where you ):

Ps I'm sorry.
My posts have yet to go beyond 70 entries aye.
& I'VE SWITCHED OVER TO LJ. HAHAHA.
Goodbye rupturedbeaute.

natalierants.livejournal.com

I know it sounds rather silly.
BUT !
Remember to change th links alright ? Haha.
Loves.

Imagine we had chemistry.

; Angela.
Haha ! He's nice luh ;)

; Mabel.
Hello haha.
Hot partners are cool right !

; Jialin.
Fellow Scylops hahaha.
Nice to know you too (:
Linked you alr !

; Sean.
Alrights ;) See you !

; Aisyah.
Haha thnks. Linked you.

; Spider.
Mks ! Haha. Linked you also.

; Felicia.
Hey ! Thnks. Got a blog ?

; Tiffany.
I remember you too ! Lol.

; Gary.
Yes ! Great time haha.

; Ashely.
No problem (:

; Amirah.
Okay ! Woots.

; Joanna.
I miss it very much too !

Rewinding back to yesterday afternoon.
Bumped into Lois in th train.
Headed down to Simei, then Bugis.
Met up with th girls again (:
Ying. Jaslyn. Geraldine. Shir.
Lunched at BugisCafe.
Saw Abi nd Yanxin working there too.

Went to meet Brandon after that.
Used a bus to Tp where everyone was at.
Scythia had th most number of FOWs (:
Th performance were pretty good yanno !
Then came mass dance nd al.
Which we were highly anticipating for. Lol.
Ended off with th Jam&Hop event.
Went back with th guys after midnight.

Nd those below are from th workshop.
Quality of images not as pretty as Gary's aye.
Hahahaha.

Me. Jialin. Felicia. Tiffany.

Me. Angela. Joanna.Me. Weilun. Mabel.
With some of th girls (:
Me nd Alex. Yeaaa !

Linyong nd me ! Haha.This is CK ! Ophix's GL (: Somehow he looks familiar.Me & another one of my GL dance partner, Guanzuo !Super fun people :DDTh twist fad ;)Chiongsters after 12am.

We love th GLs !

Doh-re-mi (:

Lois nd Amanda (:Me nd Brandon.Me. Barbara. Joanna.Me. Joanna. Angela.

Went to th temple today. So anw.

Headed over to Ying's house late afternoon.
Watched 'Holy Daddy' with them. Haha.
Then she did th cooking for us. Yums.
I love th pie ! (:

Have been doing mass conversations with friends.
Many gossips going on hurr.
So so so so scandalous ! Haha.

Alright, need to update my friendster now.
I'm sorry I haven't got to write back alrights ?
Smth's wrng with th commenting.
Ps. Click on pictures above to enlarge.

Taking their pride away.

; Cindy.
Yeah fun ! :D

; Shir.
Where have you been ! Haha.
Missed you too.

; Angela.
Oh my. Lol.
You didn't see right ?

; Joanna.
OEIII ! (:

Th third day of fow ended well (:
Ernie was our empire's best freshie.
So much of fun this three days.
They even gave us certificates haha.
Pictures another time yeah ?

Anw.
A BIG THNK YOU TO SCYTHIA !
& th sub-empire scylops :DD
It has been a wonderful experience with you al.
Especially being so fortunate to have such nice GLs.
Th prettayes nd th handsomes.
Th workshop was unexpectedly great.

Knowing new school mates (:
Some who are in th same course as me. Haha.
Will get to see them again very soon.
Nd of course, Lois nd Amanda !

Being taught th mass dance.
It's uber fun yanno (:
Danced with Nic, another GL nd Linyong.
I like th spinning part, though it makes me giddy.
Rawr ! Hahah.

Despite th hot weather, th activities were still fantastic.
Th performance night, water games nd 'Hunt-gry' !
Having to hold a guy's hand (Yu Fei's, I remember).
Hop on one leg. Kiss nd bang th wall. Pillar dancing.
Those silly stuff you can think of !
Nd there was th 'final clash' too.
Big, humongous lollipop. Lol.

We had supper together at cpf Macs.
They said it was like a tradition I guess ?
Th Ophix's GL, CK, was very nice too.
Haha. Took pictures before they left.
Was alr past midnight then.
Cabbed home with Yisheng (: That's al.

I can't wait for tmr night (:
I hope I can make it there with them.
Scythia oei ! S-O-N-G song !

FO on 19th-20th.
TP ROCKS !

P.s what's 'tongka tongka' ?
Oh btw.
I'm not Malay. Nor Ahlian.

He's only a step away.

; Beefy.
You started school alr ?
Why, what's wrng !

; Alex.
Okay ! You too alrights.

; Denyse.
HAHA YES !
You should have came yanno.

; Angela.
Seriously ? Hahaha.
See you ltr, babe !

Today's th third nd last day of fow ):
But anyhow.
Yesterday was th most exciting.
:D
I'm expressing my BIG happy face.
Can you tell ? Lol.

I LOVE TH TP MASS DANCE.
Got two hot partners ? Lol.
& th chicken dance ! Hahaha.
Super cute yanno.
& th tp songs.
Temasek's me, Temasek's you, we are a team !

But there was photo-taking right after.
Though th performance was screwed.
Th rest made up for it.
So th day was still enjoyable.

Secret smiles (:

I'll kiss her under th tree.

Thnks for th pretty comments.

; Chuwen.
Yeah, hahaha.
You're not in orientation ?

; Sheryl.
Yo Sheryl. Haha.
How come you landed in my blog ?

; Almy.
Yes, only we have to worry ! Lol.

; Alex.
Hahaha. Thnks sweet.

; Minmin.
Haha, don't know why also.
But it's just a random recall ya.
Thnks btw.
Nd so sorry about th fonts.
I thought th entry was too long that's why.
Lol !

; Angela.
Okay. Thnks for being so positive (:

; Cindy.
Hello girlfriend. Thnk you.
Let's al be happy. Haha.
Misses.

; Denyse.
We have each other yeah ?
Loves.

; Weilun.
Thnks I'm okay haha (:
That's not th point ! Lol.

Anw. Good morning, it's early.
A short entry before I leave for fow 2nd day.

So like yesterday was th first day for us.
Met up with th girls to register in.
Angela, Joanna & Barbara.
We're in different groups ):
I'm from Scythia.
Nd my sub-group is Scylops.
Or also known as 'scallops, very precious' (:

I got to see my eyecandy again.
& a few familiar faces.
Th rest are like total strangers. Awkward.
Made friends with a few girls.
Me, Loyce & Amanda always stick together.
Hahaha.

Mistakes we found only now.

; Almy.
Haha are you serious ?
Okay I'll try, thnks btw.

; Denyse.
Don't worry babe.
For your case, you won't get fat.
Yeah, hahaha.
I think Arsenal sweets would be cool !

; Andrew.
Thnks kor. You too.

; Alex.
Alot more ;)
Been on my mind lately.

; Cindy.
Don't worry I'll share with you.

I was reading back on my previous blogs.

It got me thinking alot about th past.
How I used to change blogs.
Because I could never stick to one.
Rant so much about everything.
Being over-sensitive on some issues.
Making silly remarks, typing in paragraphs.
Nd most of th time being an emo girl.

I remember in those secondary years.
I always felt that my parents don't even bother about me.
Other parents used to show so much concern
for their daughter's schooling.
I was rather disappointed, because mine don't ask much.
They don't know my class, my subjects.
My co-curriculum activities, not even my test or exams.
I seldom head straight home after school.
So much so that I wanted not to bother about studies.
Yet it did me no good.
In th final year for th Os, they never asked.
They didn't know I was in th midst of my examinations anw.
Th day I received my results, I wanted to share th news.
But she rejected my call.

When it comes to friends, I put them in priority before th rest.
I could go nd help a friend out.
Rather than being at home studying for an upcoming exam.
I could spend my night talking on th phone.
With one who needs a listening ear.
Even if I needed my sleep badly.
But sometimes when I needed a companion.
There won't be anyone.
Like as if not even a single one of them.
Would want to put aside some time for me.
So what if you're labelled my 'bestfriend' or 'girlfriend' or 'boyfriend'.
I don't see it, I don't feel it either.
I get very envious when I know of others.
Who have such close friendships that last.
Be it for academics or personal reasons, I was at a losing end.

Past 3 years of my birthdays were horrible.
When I was 14, I had Aranda booked to celebrate.
Friends turned up, but main thinking only to eat th bbq food.
Cut th cake with me, nd leave.
From then on, I thought to myself.
Maybe it's because th examinations are near ?
So it's difficult to celebrate.
When I was 15, I had no celebrations.
Some close friends even forgotten my birthday.
But I can't get over my day just like that right ?
So like I bought a slice of cake nd went home.
Cried yes, but that's about it.
Then just last year I had my birthday wishes.
But still no celebrations.
I messaged my close friends asking if they were still free.
Yet no reply.
It was not any sweet sixteen like others had.
But thnk you Shir, for coming down to my house in th morning
Just to pass me my present nd cake on my 16th birthday.
I love you girl. You mean so much to me.
& thnk you Cindy, for cabbing down, picking me up.
Spending my last few hours going out with me nd al.
Like how th word spells it, girlfriend.
On th other hand.
I've never forgotten to wish my friends on their birthdays.
I'd remember their presents too.
See how upsetting it is for me ?

There are those times I had swings or I feel so down.
I vent my anger easily, nd through my words, even on friends.
Nd I apologise for my unruly behaviour.
I make them worry so much, I let emotions get th better of me.
Isolating myself. Hiding away during breaks.
Going to th back of th classroom to have some time alone.
Tears.

But I've learnt to move on with life.
Minor things like those shouldn't pull me down so easily.
In life, not everything is pretty.
I've got many more obstacles to face, this is just th beginning.
As said from last Monday onwards.
I seriously made my mind up to change for th better.
I'm alr not using anymore vulgarities, be it blogging or verbally.
I'm trying to make more new friends.
I'm not going to attitude at people or whatsoever.
But being nice to everyone.

-

Somehow I wish my friends could make my life much more worthwhile.
I don't want friends who only come nd go when they have no one else to look for.
I don't want friends who only take me for granted.
I don't want friends who forget th old ones when they go to another instituition.
I want friends who support nd share ups nd downs.
Friends who know th true meaning of who they are in th first place.

Jaslyn, Geraldine nd Jayne.
Despite our school stuff nd al.
We must have dinner out together still okay ?
& Shir.
It's so difficult between us, I'm going mad.
I miss you.

To those who alr found their closest bestfriends.
Remember to treasure nd not hurt.
Takes time to understand more.

I'm still searching for mine.
Al over again.

-

If only I could have someone who could stand by me.
Catch me when I feel like crashing down.
Hold me when it feels like th world's falling apart.
Telling me :

"I'm always here with you at your side.
So you won't feel lonely anymore."

She was dancing down th streets.

; Lydia.
Fun ? Haha. So mean !

; Alex.
Hahaha !

; Weilun.
Why strange ! Lol.
We live in th same area yanno.
Not camp, workshop ;)

Fell asleep on th laptop last night.
Sorry for not replying on Msn.
It's an afternoon alr.
Have to go church ltr for smth.

Dad cooked muifan yesterday. Yums.
Met them to head to Queenstown.
Th place isn't as interesting as last time.
Food were so very tempting !
But no, Jaslyn nd I had to resist. Lol.

Used a bus down to PP (Parkway).
It was a really long ride.
Bought junkfood at Marks&Spencer's.
Took a train home from Paya Lebar.
I ate alot after it struck midnight ):

Anw. I'm trying to figure out imeem.
Haha. Anyone knows ?

Alright. Will update again.

Th least you could do was more than I needed.

; Beefy.
It's alright ! My fault too yeah.
Prata please (:
Will be nice to catch up together.

; Cindy.
You seem to mia from me. Lol.
I'm alright, you busy girl ! Hahaha.

Dad bought me lunch yesterday.
I had chicken rice again. Omg ?
Went WWW with them.
Oh Tsunami was horrible.
Being sprayed at Shiokriver.
Slide-up is thrilling. Sort of.
Someone was working today. Hahaha.

Despite using th sunblock, I'm chaota.
Dinner's sweet&sour fish with rice :DD
MILOPENG ! Lol.
Saw Weilun too. Hello, missed you.

My marmi used to tell me not to talk to strangers.
But I chose to ignore.
Strangers can always become friends (:

I find it somehow intimidating though.
When they start questioning me alot.
& asking to send over my picture.

Eeks. Of course not ! Haha.

But there's this lady who added me today.
So random, but she's really nice.

Anw. Meeting Jaslyn nd Geraldine ltr.
TGIF.
I don't really like staying home.

I feel lost.
):

I didn't catch th star.

; Clara.
Urh. Bugis (:

; Angela.
Haha ! It's hard to imagine though.
Can't wait to see you again babe !

; Alex.
Yes. Lol.

; Denyse.
Eat more eat more.
Hahaha. Then see you on 23rd ya ?

; Lydia.
Hello (: Oh yeah !
Now that you reminded me.
I feel so gullible loll.

Trained to Bugis, got my jeans.
Didn't get to catch up with Beefy though.
Met Alex there.
Simple, pretty stuff makes my day (:
Had chicken rice. Yummy !
He taught me th proper way to play pool too.
Thnks for everything ! I enjoyed myself.

-

I never thought I'd have to think about al this again.
Just so happens.

I've got a thousand of apologies.
As well as a million of thankyous to them.
(No names will be used for personal reasons.)

Thnk you for guiding me.
Taking my first step into reality.

Thnk you for trying to always be there for me.
& I'm sorry for al this years awaiting.
But you're always regarded as a close brother.

Thnk you for helping me move on from th past.
& for th silly memories then.
Now. I'm happy for you nd her (:

Thnk you for those times we shared.
Yes. Faith nd fear don't mix.

Thnk you for wanting me as your girl.
For treating me very well.
That was th sweetest time I had.
& sorry for my mistakes whatsoever.

Thnk you for being such a sweetie.
& for making me th rose.

Thnk you for spending time with me.
It was nice company.
& thnk you for th rose nd merci chocs.
You're th first. Sweet.
But sorry I didn't accept you.
It was hard to.

Thnk you for wanting to try.
& for making me realise how different guys are.
Sorry things didn't work out fine.
I chose to let go.

Thnk you sweetheart, for being you.
I miss you, girl.
You're always willing to listen me out.
& sorry if ever I'm not there for you at tyms.
But I'd try my best to.

Thnk you for liking me.
You're a very nice guy.
But sorry, somehow I'd rather just be friends.

Thnk you for th pretty rose.
This is only my second one. Haha.
& I'll be your royal/loyal reader alrights.
You'll make it one day.

Thnk you for wanting to confide in me.
I found out many answers to questions.
Keep on pursuing.

Thnk you for al my friends.
Without you guys, life would be more awful.
& sorry for th past me.
If I've upset anyone.

I don't want to hurt anyone, anymore.
It gives a bad feeling inside.
What I want is to see smiles from th heart.

-

"In life, not everything is pretty."

Will be busy out till Saturday.
Sometimes I feel so tired again.

Poly has yet to start.
But alr I'm feeling th stress.
Smth's wrng with me.

-

Okay to lighten things up in my post.
Here's my nick a few days ago :

* ; natalie . ♥ HAHA HELLO IM NOT FREE TMR TIL SAT.

& I've got people replying me (lol?) :

____ says:
wah liu
____ says:
what a nick
____ says:
not free ?
____ says:
wah so happening
____ says:
i tot u like so sian sian 1
____ says:
at last got mad event ar ?

______ says :
WALAO NAT
______ says :
WHY NOT FREE TILL SAT?
______ says :
WHY?
______ says :
PURPOSELY SIA
_______ says :
have plans luh
_______ says :
hahaha
______ says :
u purposely. nice one
_______ says :
no really !
______ says :
its ok
______ says :
its ok nat
______ says :
its always like this

_______ says :
so someone is fully booked until sat leh
_______ says :
damn busy
_______ says :
wanna ask u out oso no space

____ says :
wa.. ur nick is like directing at me la

Sorry didnt mean to alright !
It's going to be a lousy last week of holidays.
I pray that I won't breakdown in school.

-

GERALDINE says:
want hear my school song ah?
GERALDINE says:
AHAHAHA
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
YA ! HAHAHAHA
GERALDINE says:
SHINE! POLY FOREVERMORE! -____-
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
HAHAHAH
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
yeah geraldine i can see u shining !
GERALDINE says:
LOLLLLLLLLLLL
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
if th guys were al botak
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
even more shiny !
GERALDINE says:
omgomg okok. don't get too high!
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
LOLL
GERALDINE says:
i also want hear yours!
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
Temasek's me temasek's u, we are a team !
GERALDINE says:
LOL!
GERALDINE says:
seriously, SP school song sounds like some NDP thing
GERALDINE says:
your school song not bad k!
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
HAHAHAH
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
sp not bad also ! got chance to have a record album
GERALDINE says:
LOLLLL
GERALDINE says:
my handsome principal
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
HAHAHAHAH
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
omg geraldine im falling for ur sch song ! like marching band : DDD
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
HANDSOME !
GERALDINE says:
lol
GERALDINE says:
oh oh when are you going to make your concession pass at transitlink?
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
im not sure also
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
when my matriculation card is given to me i think
GERALDINE says:
i think mine's around next week
GERALDINE says:
hahaha must show me your card ok!
GERALDINE says:
ahahahahhahaha
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
HAHAHA
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
but pls dun 'lol'
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
if u want, i allow u to 'los'
GERALDINE says:
OKOK
GERALDINE says:
LOS
GERALDINE says:
AHAHAHAHA
* ; natalie . ♥ uglyducklingquack (: says:
hahaha

You're th other side of my identity.

; Denyse.
Yeah what's wrng with those meatballs. Lol.
Oh you like th chicken wing too (:
Th packing list seem more for like.
Th camp instead.

; Shirleen.
Yes of course !
I'll be waiting for you.

; Chuwen.
Hello back (:

; Hero.
Hey you're here again.
Hello hi. Haha.
Sea breeze must be your favourite.

It's a Tuesday nd I'm staying home again.
Natalie has a mundane lifestyle.

I love grey. Grey's hott.

April fool's fun (:
Pranked anyone ? I did.

Lunch with sister nd cousin.
Palm Sunday was interesting.
Palms. Poke poke.
Saw Mrs Teo again, looking good.
Dinner at 24hour.

I just love milopeng :DD

A long afternoon nap till about 6pm yesterday.
Two hours of pool with them.
Th joke of th day ?
I brought th cue out after paying.
Hahaha.

I've been falling asleep on my laptop.
Even before 3am.

Have yet to receive th email for workshop.
Why is that so.

But my mail for freshman orientation came.
So wlny forum says tp's haunted.
I would love to check it out one day.

I feel so random.

Anw. I made a new list again.
Here.

Th band came back from Hawaii alr.
Congrats on th silver.
I'm always proud of you juniors (:

/Fucking Sun Burn says:
u noe who is swesanger or something dunno how to spell
/Fucking Sun Burn says:
lol
* ; natalie . ♥ says:
what what what ?
* ; natalie . ♥ says:
hahaha i don't understand you

(HAHAHA so funny)